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I'm a transsexual as well as a neutrois. I identify with the definition of transsexual as someone who seeks to transition- not someone who identifies within the binary.
Age of discovery: I always knew I wasn't female. About 2 years ago I found out about binding and through that trans stuff. At first I came to the label neutrois, then cycled through to male and back- ultimately making the age of discovery anywhere from 16-18.
Born sex- female
Current age- 18
Problems- I haven't explained it to family yet. They know me as a transguy and that's fine for now, I don't feel like cluttering the issues. My partner is also non-binary so it was fine, although they tend to return to calling me a guy, I think they still see me more as one than they'd like to admit. They're only just accepting themselves, though. I explained my partner's gender to my friend and it went pretty well.
Age of discovery- I have always known that I was not male. At a young age I thought I might be female as that was the visible alternative. I was open until sixth grade when a friend advised me to closet myself I quickly learned why and complied remaining so until I was 16, though it was no secret that I was not happy as a male. At 16 I realized that I was into males and quickly came out as bi then pansexual, I did not want to limit myself to one sex. But by 17 I was identifying my sexuality clearly as an Androphile which I was sure of after my first kiss with a boy. It was threw my experience within the queer community that I learned of non-binary gender and the role of hormones in sex development. I have been out as gender neutral/neutrois since 17.
Born sex- Neuter ^_- but physically Male.
Current age- 22.
Problems explaining gender identity to friend/ family- Only that the world is full of small minded bigits that refuse to see non-binary gender when its rite in front of them. My motto is if people don’t accept you for who you are then you don’t need them, and it's as simple as that.
Age of discovery: Approximately 6 years of age. I was in kindergarten. We had to write out our names on pieces of paper and draw a picture of what we wanted to be when we grew up. I wrote out my very long, very French-Catholic, very female name and looked at it and went "Who in the hell is that?" It was a girl's name. I did not feel like a girl. My picture was of me wearing black pants and a black shirt and shoes, carrying a briefcase or something. I think I wanted to be a lawyer, though I don't remember for sure. The drawing was completely neutral. I didn't have the words to put it into at that point. In fact, I was nearly 20 before I had a word to explain what I'd been feeling since I was six. I went back and forth with the idea of identifying as male when I was in high school, but the idea of having a dick scared me.
born sex: Female.
current age: 22
problems explaining gender identity to friend/ family: My mother believes that any form of transgendered behaviour is tantamount to fraud. I do have a wonderful fiancé who accepts me fully.
Hi, I truly felt that I was born this way. I wouldn't say I had an age of discovery that I am neutrois; for me it was rather that I discovered that I lost the freedom to be me. Instead, at 11 years old, I discovered that society and genetics forced me to be a female against my will. I have no desire to be male either though. In fact, to be blunt I detest all genetalia and stereotypical gender markers.
I have been married twice. Neither marriage has/had been consummated, because I can't stand the thought of being penetrated.
If anything I would say that I wish I were pregender, if this makes sense. That is, I wish I could be at the only happy state of my life; a time that I was free to be myself, the me I created.
I currently live in San Francisco. I am 28 years old. I am having a bad crisis right now, because after being brought to a marriage counsellor by my husband, I was laughed at, ridiculed and basically told that there are no others like me and that I'm crazy. I was placed on a waiting list to see a Dr. that would "treat my gender dysmorphic mental illness, so that I could accept and embrace being a woman...so one day my life could be complete, by having sex and having children."
I never went back. No part of me wants children, moreover, I believe my life can be complete and happy without conforming to being a female.
Sorry to rant on so much, but I am in desperate need of people that understand what it is to desire being genderless.
Thanks for your time.
I'm a transsexual as well as a neutrois. I identify with the definition of transsexual as someone who seeks to transition- not someone who identifies within the binary.
Age of discovery: I always knew I wasn't female. About 2 years ago I found out about binding and through that trans stuff. At first I came to the label neutrois, then cycled through to male and back- ultimately making the age of discovery anywhere from 16-18.
Born sex- female
Current age- 18
Problems- I haven't explained it to family yet. They know me as a transguy and that's fine for now, I don't feel like cluttering the issues. My partner is also non-binary so it was fine, although they tend to return to calling me a guy, I think they still see me more as one than they'd like to admit. They're only just accepting themselves, though. I explained my partner's gender to my friend and it went pretty well.
Age of discovery- I have always known that I was not male. At a young age I thought I might be female as that was the visible alternative. I was open until sixth grade when a friend advised me to closet myself I quickly learned why and complied remaining so until I was 16, though it was no secret that I was not happy as a male. At 16 I realized that I was into males and quickly came out as bi then pansexual, I did not want to limit myself to one sex. But by 17 I was identifying my sexuality clearly as an Androphile which I was sure of after my first kiss with a boy. It was threw my experience within the queer community that I learned of non-binary gender and the role of hormones in sex development. I have been out as gender neutral/neutrois since 17.
Born sex- Neuter ^_- but physically Male.
Current age- 22.
Problems explaining gender identity to friend/ family- Only that the world is full of small minded bigits that refuse to see non-binary gender when its rite in front of them. My motto is if people don’t accept you for who you are then you don’t need them, and it's as simple as that.
Age of discovery: Approximately 6 years of age. I was in kindergarten. We had to write out our names on pieces of paper and draw a picture of what we wanted to be when we grew up. I wrote out my very long, very French-Catholic, very female name and looked at it and went "Who in the hell is that?" It was a girl's name. I did not feel like a girl. My picture was of me wearing black pants and a black shirt and shoes, carrying a briefcase or something. I think I wanted to be a lawyer, though I don't remember for sure. The drawing was completely neutral. I didn't have the words to put it into at that point. In fact, I was nearly 20 before I had a word to explain what I'd been feeling since I was six. I went back and forth with the idea of identifying as male when I was in high school, but the idea of having a dick scared me.
born sex: Female.
current age: 22
problems explaining gender identity to friend/ family: My mother believes that any form of transgendered behaviour is tantamount to fraud. I do have a wonderful fiancé who accepts me fully.
Hi, I truly felt that I was born this way. I wouldn't say I had an age of discovery that I am neutrois; for me it was rather that I discovered that I lost the freedom to be me. Instead, at 11 years old, I discovered that society and genetics forced me to be a female against my will. I have no desire to be male either though. In fact, to be blunt I detest all genetalia and stereotypical gender markers.
I have been married twice. Neither marriage has/had been consummated, because I can't stand the thought of being penetrated.
If anything I would say that I wish I were pregender, if this makes sense. That is, I wish I could be at the only happy state of my life; a time that I was free to be myself, the me I created.
I currently live in San Francisco. I am 28 years old. I am having a bad crisis right now, because after being brought to a marriage counsellor by my husband, I was laughed at, ridiculed and basically told that there are no others like me and that I'm crazy. I was placed on a waiting list to see a Dr. that would "treat my gender dysmorphic mental illness, so that I could accept and embrace being a woman...so one day my life could be complete, by having sex and having children."
I never went back. No part of me wants children, moreover, I believe my life can be complete and happy without conforming to being a female.
Sorry to rant on so much, but I am in desperate need of people that understand what it is to desire being genderless.
Thanks for your time.
Age of discovery: I always knew I wasn't female. About 2 years ago I found out about binding and through that trans stuff. At first I came to the label neutrois, then cycled through to male and back- ultimately making the age of discovery anywhere from 16-18.
Born sex- female
Current age- 18
Problems- I haven't explained it to family yet. They know me as a transguy and that's fine for now, I don't feel like cluttering the issues. My partner is also non-binary so it was fine, although they tend to return to calling me a guy, I think they still see me more as one than they'd like to admit. They're only just accepting themselves, though. I explained my partner's gender to my friend and it went pretty well.
Age of discovery- I have always known that I was not male. At a young age I thought I might be female as that was the visible alternative. I was open until sixth grade when a friend advised me to closet myself I quickly learned why and complied remaining so until I was 16, though it was no secret that I was not happy as a male. At 16 I realized that I was into males and quickly came out as bi then pansexual, I did not want to limit myself to one sex. But by 17 I was identifying my sexuality clearly as an Androphile which I was sure of after my first kiss with a boy. It was threw my experience within the queer community that I learned of non-binary gender and the role of hormones in sex development. I have been out as gender neutral/neutrois since 17.
Born sex- Neuter ^_- but physically Male.
Current age- 22.
Problems explaining gender identity to friend/ family- Only that the world is full of small minded bigits that refuse to see non-binary gender when its rite in front of them. My motto is if people don’t accept you for who you are then you don’t need them, and it's as simple as that.
Age of discovery: Approximately 6 years of age. I was in kindergarten. We had to write out our names on pieces of paper and draw a picture of what we wanted to be when we grew up. I wrote out my very long, very French-Catholic, very female name and looked at it and went "Who in the hell is that?" It was a girl's name. I did not feel like a girl. My picture was of me wearing black pants and a black shirt and shoes, carrying a briefcase or something. I think I wanted to be a lawyer, though I don't remember for sure. The drawing was completely neutral. I didn't have the words to put it into at that point. In fact, I was nearly 20 before I had a word to explain what I'd been feeling since I was six. I went back and forth with the idea of identifying as male when I was in high school, but the idea of having a dick scared me.
born sex: Female.
current age: 22
problems explaining gender identity to friend/ family: My mother believes that any form of transgendered behaviour is tantamount to fraud. I do have a wonderful fiancé who accepts me fully.
Hi, I truly felt that I was born this way. I wouldn't say I had an age of discovery that I am neutrois; for me it was rather that I discovered that I lost the freedom to be me. Instead, at 11 years old, I discovered that society and genetics forced me to be a female against my will. I have no desire to be male either though. In fact, to be blunt I detest all genetalia and stereotypical gender markers.
I have been married twice. Neither marriage has/had been consummated, because I can't stand the thought of being penetrated.
If anything I would say that I wish I were pregender, if this makes sense. That is, I wish I could be at the only happy state of my life; a time that I was free to be myself, the me I created.
I currently live in San Francisco. I am 28 years old. I am having a bad crisis right now, because after being brought to a marriage counsellor by my husband, I was laughed at, ridiculed and basically told that there are no others like me and that I'm crazy. I was placed on a waiting list to see a Dr. that would "treat my gender dysmorphic mental illness, so that I could accept and embrace being a woman...so one day my life could be complete, by having sex and having children."
I never went back. No part of me wants children, moreover, I believe my life can be complete and happy without conforming to being a female.
Sorry to rant on so much, but I am in desperate need of people that understand what it is to desire being genderless.
Thanks for your time.
I'm a transsexual as well as a neutrois. I identify with the definition of transsexual as someone who seeks to transition- not someone who identifies within the binary.
Age of discovery: I always knew I wasn't female. About 2 years ago I found out about binding and through that trans stuff. At first I came to the label neutrois, then cycled through to male and back- ultimately making the age of discovery anywhere from 16-18.
Born sex- female
Current age- 18
Problems- I haven't explained it to family yet. They know me as a transguy and that's fine for now, I don't feel like cluttering the issues. My partner is also non-binary so it was fine, although they tend to return to calling me a guy, I think they still see me more as one than they'd like to admit. They're only just accepting themselves, though. I explained my partner's gender to my friend and it went pretty well.
Age of discovery- I have always known that I was not male. At a young age I thought I might be female as that was the visible alternative. I was open until sixth grade when a friend advised me to closet myself I quickly learned why and complied remaining so until I was 16, though it was no secret that I was not happy as a male. At 16 I realized that I was into males and quickly came out as bi then pansexual, I did not want to limit myself to one sex. But by 17 I was identifying my sexuality clearly as an Androphile which I was sure of after my first kiss with a boy. It was threw my experience within the queer community that I learned of non-binary gender and the role of hormones in sex development. I have been out as gender neutral/neutrois since 17.
Born sex- Neuter ^_- but physically Male.
Current age- 22.
Problems explaining gender identity to friend/ family- Only that the world is full of small minded bigits that refuse to see non-binary gender when its rite in front of them. My motto is if people don’t accept you for who you are then you don’t need them, and it's as simple as that.
Age of discovery: Approximately 6 years of age. I was in kindergarten. We had to write out our names on pieces of paper and draw a picture of what we wanted to be when we grew up. I wrote out my very long, very French-Catholic, very female name and looked at it and went "Who in the hell is that?" It was a girl's name. I did not feel like a girl. My picture was of me wearing black pants and a black shirt and shoes, carrying a briefcase or something. I think I wanted to be a lawyer, though I don't remember for sure. The drawing was completely neutral. I didn't have the words to put it into at that point. In fact, I was nearly 20 before I had a word to explain what I'd been feeling since I was six. I went back and forth with the idea of identifying as male when I was in high school, but the idea of having a dick scared me.
born sex: Female.
current age: 22
problems explaining gender identity to friend/ family: My mother believes that any form of transgendered behaviour is tantamount to fraud. I do have a wonderful fiancé who accepts me fully.
Hi, I truly felt that I was born this way. I wouldn't say I had an age of discovery that I am neutrois; for me it was rather that I discovered that I lost the freedom to be me. Instead, at 11 years old, I discovered that society and genetics forced me to be a female against my will. I have no desire to be male either though. In fact, to be blunt I detest all genetalia and stereotypical gender markers.
I have been married twice. Neither marriage has/had been consummated, because I can't stand the thought of being penetrated.
If anything I would say that I wish I were pregender, if this makes sense. That is, I wish I could be at the only happy state of my life; a time that I was free to be myself, the me I created.
I currently live in San Francisco. I am 28 years old. I am having a bad crisis right now, because after being brought to a marriage counsellor by my husband, I was laughed at, ridiculed and basically told that there are no others like me and that I'm crazy. I was placed on a waiting list to see a Dr. that would "treat my gender dysmorphic mental illness, so that I could accept and embrace being a woman...so one day my life could be complete, by having sex and having children."
I never went back. No part of me wants children, moreover, I believe my life can be complete and happy without conforming to being a female.
Sorry to rant on so much, but I am in desperate need of people that understand what it is to desire being genderless.
Thanks for your time.